Storm In A Teacup

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I was looking through some of my old photos (really old, like 20 years ago) the other day when I realized something. I wasn't fat at all! But the thing is, back then I truly believed that I was fat.

I think I was about 13 when I started being conscious with the way my body looked. I was the tallest in class, and being 'big boned' didn't help either. My classmates were smaller and cuter than me (that was how I saw it back then). I guess being naive caused me to think that I was fat. I had my period when I was 11, yeah, very early for a girl at that age. Back then, my girlfriends had theirs when they were in their teens. So, I felt even more conscious with zits popping out of my face. I wondered what was wrong with me then. Was I normal? Was I a freak?

Having a low self esteem definitely didn't help. I was shy and reserved and didn't mix around much with the boys cos they were also shorter than me. I don't think they would have wanted to hang out with a girl taller then them, right? I remember most of them having to look up when they talked with me... LOL! So, teen girls out there, please don't despair if you see your girlfriends are smaller than you. That doesn't mean you're fat.

It was not until I delivered my 1st baby when I realized my spare tyres were getting thicker and stubborn. Nothing I do seemed to work. I dieted by starving myself which didn't help at all cos I would be grumpy from the lack of food. I couldn't even concentrate on work. I think even my colleagues avoided me... hehe

So out of desperation, I tried a few slimming products. I was duped into buying the 'Ab Trimmer' (yeah, I blame SmartShop for that). Their ad was so convincing (how could I be so stupid), I thought I'd lose the weight just by using the Ab Trimmer. Of course, I didn't lose anything, the only thing I lost was my money :( I swore not to fall for ads like that again!

Then I tried this pill, I think it was called FibreFill or something. It's supposed to make me feel full after every meal so I wouldn't eat so much. That was a flop too. Next, was the cream you rub on your tummy, thigh, arm, etc. It gave this heaty effects which was suppose to melt the stubborn fats (or lemaks as kadusMama calls them). It caused rashes on my body so I chucked the tube in less than a week. I tried all kinds of stuff.

Then when I was about to lose hope, a friend recommended this herbal drink. She managed to lose weight just by drinking the tea. So, I thought, what have I gotta lose? Out of desperation, I bought the tea from a nearby pharmacy and started drinking it (one mug full).

Several hours later that night, I had the world's worst tummy ache. It almost felt like I had labor pains!!! The pain was excruciating, I was squirming and clinging to dear life sitting on the toilet bowl. I regretted drinking the bloody tea but I couldn't do anything so I just had to 'go with the flow'. Oh man, and flow it did. I think I was in the toilet for close to an hour with tears and sweat flowing freely from my face!

After that ordeal, I re-read the instructions again and it claimed the tea will give a mild effect. Mild my foot! I suppose they didn't even try the tea... it was far from being mild. It was torturous. They could probably use this tea as an interrogation method or something... hehe.

The next day, I woke up feeling light (no surprise there) so I thought maybe my body was shocked with the tea effects so decided to give it another chance. This time I drank just half a mug and I didn't steep the tea for too long. True enough, the pain wasn't as excruciating but it was still painful. I faithfully drank the tea for several months. The best part is getting complimented by my colleagues when they noticed I've lost a bit of weight! I felt like I was a supermodel... hahaha

Having lost a bit of weight left me feeling deliberated. I followed my girlfriends shopping, buying nice clothes, getting stares from other guys (LOL) and we really had a great time :D But my joy was short lived, cos I couldn't get my supply of the tea. I went to each and every pharmacy and they didn't have any stock. That went on for several weeks. My body was already 'in tune' with the tea that when I continued drinking it, I went through the same excruciating pain like my first experience with the tea.

The worst thing was the erratic supply of the tea, some months they'll have it, other times they don't. It was annoying to put my body to such punishment. So after years of drinking the tea, I decided enough is enough. I was also expecting my 2nd baby so it wouldn't be wise to drink tea in that condition so I stopped and the weight came back with a vengeance :(

That was 9 years ago and I haven't tried the tea again. I do not want to feel that pain just to lose weight. I know there's an easier way... yes, it's to exercise. But I'm just too lazy so I guess I'm stuck with these excess baggage. Oh well... it doesn't really bug me anymore. I have 2 wonderful boys (even though they get on my nerves most times) but I am happy :)

So, all you ladies out there on a quest to a slimmer you, perhaps you're contemplating on using M&M Inc. 2 or drinking teas, just be careful. Get as many opinions you can get from friends, family even doctors. Being slim is not everything. The important thing is our health :)
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